My name is Carly and I’m 26 years old. I
was diagnosed with depression in 2012. I also suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and although
not medically diagnosed, I have the occasional obsessive compulsive tendencies
as well.
I came up with the idea for Me & My Silhouette because I’m not
the type of person who likes to talk about my feelings or things I’m going
through, but I really enjoy writing and I find when I write it releases some of
the pressure I feel and I’m able to get things off my chest and feel happier
and less stressed. I figured a blog would allow me to do that and it would be
something I could come back to time and time again as a sort of self-help tool
to remind myself how far I’ve come in my journey of recovery. Since depression
is becoming more and more common, especially among youth, I wanted my blog to
be educational on the subject matter and also be an inspiration to other people
suffering; a safe place where people can come and not be judged and be encouraged
to push themselves towards a healthier and happier lifestyle.
I came up with the name Me & My Silhouette because I thought
it represented the situation I find myself in fairly well. Some days I’m happy
and able to function well and to just live my life and no one would know I was
dealing with depression. Then other days it’s like I look in the mirror and I
see my reflection staring back at me, I look like myself, but I don’t feel like
me at all, the feelings I have are so foreign to who I am that it’s hard to
understand how the person staring back at me in the mirror, how the person who
looks so much like me on the outside, is really me. It’s like there’s me, and
then there’s another version of me, a darker side of me that’s struggling to
see the light; my silhouette.